There, my antonymous readers, if there are any, have a bit more of me.
Still here,
Nathan
A new perspective
Flaming Pen Scratches
Let it be known that within humans there are three Flames. Each of these varies in intensity and decree for every individual, but all three are present in everyone -- for everyone is born of the same. They are: Love, Anger and Shame. The latter two of the three are closely related and often enact on one another. They, Anger and Shame, hold very close to their principles -- they spark, spread and consume and do so for destruction's end. Let us not leave the first unnamed and unidentified, for it to must be properly cautioned against with its own warnings. Although Love can go against fire’s innate principles, snuffing out its relational flames, it too can burn, spread and destroy. Some might even say that it does so more ruthlessly than the others. Of the three, Love, the fastest and perhaps the most intense, is the one most shown while the others are usually concealed. But one must remember that even though they are not seen they are still smoldering beneath the surface. Today, I only deal with one. The others are present, mind you, but into the air, I only let one.
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Burn the Cinder
It starts with only a spark,
A simple look or action or even memory:
Any remanence or thought charged with a reminder of
Mistake or mishap, personal or societal.
First it must come,
Maybe by a suggested means or another one neglected.
Something you thought stamped out; you thought you were over it;
Why are you remembering?
You doused it with forgiveness or forgetfulness, it should be gone, yet it's not.
It burns Still,
As a small ember just waiting for fuel -- one screw-up, one trip, one slip of tongue or surfaced thought, unchecked. Fate need only neglect you for an instant
And that spark will have its fuel to burn and build on itself.
You can feel it in you, building, mounting; it's a wonder your skin does not serve as a wax! The temperature is rising and your reserve is breaking:
You cannot handle this new range, higher degree. Things will be harder at this level and this hardship will only make it worse.
You take in the air praying that it will call it back, perhaps bring it back to a cinder -- quieted once more if only for a while.
Observers must not see the flame within thee;
Are you man or beast?
The answer is the root of this horror by reckoning of Twain.
You remember, even amongst the burning and consuming flame no one feels but you; You must hold the fire in,
Beseeching the forces to quell it or else it may consume from inward out –
Maybe taking standarders-by with you!
It is okay this time,
The forces took heed to your cry and you remember that they are just words;
The past is no longer. Or you call upon a certain other flame to snuff the other
Or at least press it down. It is not gone-- most people say it cannot be.
Some might even say it is there to keep balance within.
I say:
Burn the cinder, burn it through.
Suppressing will not do, you must burn the cinder, burn it through,
Let the fire run its course consuming all fuels and forgotten fumes,
Let not but ashes remain.
This advice is dangerous, that much is true. But if you let the fire burn itself through
There will not be an amber or cinder to rekindle you;
So, I'm telling you
Burn the cinder, burn it through.
When there is no more fire to be displayed on the face or hidden to smolder behind;
You will be in a new realm of grace.
Some say this is not natural nor is it possible.
I say to you,
You must try, you must attempt to
Burn the cinder, burn it through
. If you do this and succeed in burning it through;
Then your own fire will no longer, never again, burn you!
©Keener2006
To Be A Writer?
Embracing a dream to see what comes
Revision
The ability to fashion ideas and thoughts in such a way as to express them clearly and powerfully to others, this is a writer. To entertain with fancies an adventure. To create a world of fiction for others to enter, this is a writer. To allow the idea that is in one's head to pass to paper. Letting them be born. Reframing them from being just another thought. To revisit them until they become fully formed characters and stories. To read them until they become what you want them to be. To you, they cease to be fiction, they become real. When I speak, I'm not just speaking of those published and professional writers. I speak to and for all who have ever put pen to paper, all who have let thoughts become. The people who are not afraid to let their mind wander and their hand move. I am certain, that many writers have lived and died in darkness. That writing is never to be seen by another human eye. Now I ask does that make their writings less powerful or meaningful, perhaps, less elegant, complex. No. To be a writer takes patience. This patience is not placed on the publisher, but oneself. To have the thought, but lacked the words is one of the most frustrating fillings I have ever known. This frustration causes fatigue and lends to the idea of forgoing the effort. To this, I suspect many writers were lost to the world. I have ideas. They are all present and flashing in my head. Will half of them ever reach paper? No, not likely. Does this mean I should stop trying to do something that seems so impossible? No, I like words; I like knowing them and using them. Combining words into strange yet correct phrases. Using words in unconventional ways is not always wrong. As a matter of fact, sometimes that is the only way to tell that someone has written something and it was not someone else. This my friends, is called style. Be that as it may, many teachers’ especially high school and college teachers frown upon free liberty writing. Such writing breaks can grammatical code and is therefore wrong. I have been "wrong" many times. Did they change my writing style? To some degree they did but I like to think I kept the foundation of my format intacted through all those spirit sucking essays and research papers. For a writer, to know and use words is to love them. To love them is to use them. To use words in creation is inspiration. Do I love words? Yes, I do. It is because of that love of words and their uses that many writers aspire to become professionals. I also believe it is because many writers become professionals to gain that one element they lack, an element that is able to propell them to greatness, an audience. Even with the Internet and all other technological marvels a reading audience can be hard to find, unless one is published. To be published requires a certain level of conforming. This will not do for some, thusly, they may choose to stay in the shadows rather than compromise their ideas.
One who claims to want to be a writer and claims failure due to lack of education is in self-denial. Inspiration, imagination, is the fuel behind every word and letter. No one needs special classes or permission to come up with ideas. If someone supposedly lacks the talent to write that means they lack the passion for words or ideas. If this is true, they need not write. To those who work and toil, triumph will come. That idea, that plot, that elusive word will come in time and with it will come the fulfillment of true worth and power. Nothing beats it. This sensation of success will energize you for years to come.
Why did I choose to be a writer? There are many reasons, but ultimately only one matters. Ever since I was little I wrote stories, had thoughts most of which are kept to myself. Why this hesitation? Fear, fear of ridicule, fear of rejection, and fear of competition: losing to someone better. Although, as most know, while playing with words, you will get better: you must practice. While practicing this art you will loose to others. When you lose you will learn. When you learned you get better, eventually, you might win. Writing is also a medium which I identify as art. It is an medium I can successfully render. It is the only method that I can use to express myself. I cannot sing, I cannot paint, I cannot play music, however, I can describe. I can paint pictures with words. I can make environments and suggest music for the reader to accompany with his or her imagination. I can make a world and invite hundreds of people to come see, to come be a part of the world. Those participants are my audience, my readers. Perhaps they will love my story and thusly love me. When they love me I will love my writing. When I love my writing, I'll love my life. To love your life is indescribable, even by writers. Will I be a novelist? I know not. Will people love my writings and love me? I can't fathom. I know what it takes to be a writer, for I am one. To Be a Writer... is a choice. Choose!
Good day to all cyber wanderers,
To Be A Writer?
Embracing a dream to see what comes
The ability to fashion ideas and thoughts in such a way as to express them clearly and powerfully to others, this is a writer. To entertain with fancies an adventure. To create a world of fiction for others to enter, this is a writer. To allow the idea that is in one's head to pass to paper. Letting them be born. Reframing them from being just another thought. To revisit them until they become fully formed characters and stories. To read them until they become what you want them to be. To you, they cease to be fiction, they become real. When I speak, I'm not just speaking of those published and professional writers. I speak to and for all who have ever put pen to paper, all who have let things become. The people who are not afraid to let their mind wander And their hand move. I am certain, that many writers have lived and died in darkness. That writing is never to be seen by another human eye. Now I asked does that make their writings less powerful or meaningful, perhaps, less elegant, complex. No. To be a writer takes patience. This patience is not placed on the publisher, but oneself. To have the thought, but lacked the words is one of the most frustrating fillings I have ever known. This frustration causes fatigue and lends to the idea of forgoing the effort. To this, I suspect many writers were lost to the world. I have ideas. They are all present and flashing in my head. Will half of them ever reach paper? No, not likely. Does this mean I should stop trying to do something that seems so impossible? No. I like words I like knowing them in using them. Combining words into strange yet correct phrases. Using words in unconventional ways is not always wrong. As a matter of fact, sometimes that is the only way to tell that someone has written something and it was not someone else. This my friends, is called style. Be that as it may, many teachers’ especially high school and college teachers frown upon free liberty writing. Such writing breaks grammatical code and is therefore wrong. I have been "wrong" many times. Did they change my writing style? To some degree they did but I like to think I kept the foundation of my format intact through all those spirits sucking essays and research papers. For a writer, to know and use words is to love them. To love them is to use them. To use words in creation is inspiration. Do I love words? Yes, I do. It is because of that love of words and their uses that many writers aspire to become professionals. I also believe it is because many writers become professionals to gain that one element they lack, an element that propelled them to greatness, an audience. Even with the Internet and all other technological marvels a reading audience can be hard to find, unless one is published. To be published requires a certain level of conforming. This will not do for some, thusly, may lead to stay in the shadows rather than compromise their ideas.
One who claims to want to be a writer and claims failure due to lack of education is in self-denial. Inspiration, imagination, is the fuel behind every word and letter. No one needs special classes or permission to come up with ideas. If someone supposedly lacks the talent to write that means they lack the passion for words or ideas. If this is true, they need not write. To those who work and toil, triumph will come. That idea, that plot, that elusive word will come in time and with it will come the fulfillment of true worth and power. Nothing beats it. This sensation success will energize you for years to come.
Why did I choose to be a writer? There are many reasons, but ultimately only one matters. Ever since I was little I wrote stories, had thoughts most of which are kept to myself. Why this hesitation? Fear, fear of ridicule, fear of rejection, and fear of competition: losing to someone better. Although, as most know, playing with words, you will get better you must practice. While practicing this art you will loose to others. When you lose you will learn. When you learned you get better, eventually, you might win. Riding is also a median which I identify as art. It is an median I can successfully render. It is the only method that I can use to express myself. I cannot sing, I cannot paint, I cannot play music, however, I can describe. I can paint pictures with words. I can make environments and suggest music for the reader to accompany with his or her imagination. I can make a world and invite hundreds of people to come see, to come be a part of the world. Those participants are my audience, my readers perhaps they will love this story and thusly love me. When they love me I will love my writing. When I love my writing, I'll love my life. To love your life is indescribable, even by writers. Will I be a novelist? I know not. Will people love my writings and love me? I can't fathom. I know what it takes to be a writer, for I am one. To Be a Writer... is a choice. Choose!
Pre-college (#1)
Truth, college is sometimes the long awaited post-secondary venture, to others it is a close terrifying encounter with the third kind. I am with the latter. College scares me. I know it will test me on all levels. More than one I have labeled college “that necessary evil”, I do not know whether or not that statement holds true. I will soon discovery the answer. With much apprehension I will enter that life of higher learning. Yes, I said life, for that is what it will become. My life is my own personal twilight zone. I was going to drag this out, but I have just now realized there is no need. If college is to become my life, then fearing it be the same as being afraid to live. That is not tolerable to any degree, no matter the reasoning. One can not life. If you do it might just leave you.
Yours Truly,
Nathan Lee
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